I know that I have already mentioned that we don't have an internet connection at home yet. Because of that I have been out of touch not only with my own blogging but with keeping up with the blogs I'd like to read.
During this time many posts have been written in my mind. Some of them are things I can still write about, and maybe I will at some point. But others needed to be put out into the world at the time, and now their time has passed.
This post is one that I haven't ever really allowed myself even to imagine. How might I write the post that I had in mind when I created this blog in the first place--but because life has gone in directions I never expected at that time has been delayed for a year and a half.
I guess this is how--by writing choppy sentences and dancing around the perimeter instead of jumping right in. Goodness knows that any attempt at being eloquent is just not going to work out right now.
Yesterday, on 11 dpo in my first cycle using Clomid (Dr. suspects a Luteal Phase Defect caused my trouble conceiving this time) a digital test taken after work confirmed what a "line" test was hinting at in the morning: I'm pregnant.
And trying not to be completely freaked out.
My absence over the last several months, and lack of support to the ladies out there who have been going through pregnancies after a loss, makes this announcement feel odd to me.
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Don't feel odd about your announcement- it's a wonderful thing regardless of how often you are able to blog.
We support you no matter what- congratulation on your "line".
~Monica
This is wonderful news:) Wishing you a long pregnancy full of days unworthy of freaking out ((hugs))
Oh wow! I have been thinking of you, wondering if you'd have this news without us hearing about it. I am happy, and I wish you a long, healthy pregnancy and will be here to listen as often as you can post.
It's ok to be freaked out. I don't think there is anyway to be in a subsequent pregnancy. But the level of, "freakness" for lack of a better word will decrease over time. I too have been thinking of you for the longest time. I've also been on a blogging vacation. I read, but I just can't find the energy to comment sometimes. And the truth it, everyone seems to say what I want to say, but it a better way. So I just read and send positive thoughts. Congrats and may you have a happy and healthy pregnancy.
Thank you to everyone who has commented. It means so much to me to hear your encouraging words and that you took the time to let me know you are there.
Last night Mr. C told me that he called yesterday to get the internet hooked up. It won't happen until September 3rd, but what is another week or so when I have been waiting almost 7 months? I think he knows how badly I will need to be connected during this pregnancy.
How lovely to hear from you and what great news to share. Congratulations.
It is so great to 'see' you again! I am so happy to hear your wonderful news. Congrats to you and Mr C.
Yes, it will be a stressful, freaky, unsettling time. But just try to breathe and take it one day at a time.
Sending lots of hugs and hoping to see more of you again once you have the internet hooked up at home!
I am so incredibly happy for you both. I can't stop beaming.
I replied to your message on PASB. I'm so glad that you are there.
We are always here for you. Please know that. I chose to lean on those fellow bloggers and I hope that you can do the same.
It's a long road, but the ending is so magnificent...much more than I could ever imagine. I can't wait until you get there.
Doing happy dance and smiling like a lunatic for you :)
Huge, huge congrats!
May your family be blessed with an uneventful pregnancy, healthy birth and joy all around.
don't feel bad, we all have lives outside of the internet and yours has been a busy busy one over the last few months. we lapse as well on ours, I do I know. You always reach out and make sure to let everyone know you're still there/here.
I hope that all of us can help you through this wonderful news that can be terrifying and confusing at times. especially in the beginning. We missed you, thank your Husband for getting it hooked up Sept 3rd, and we are always here...supporting you no matter what....2 tests...positive... my oh my that is a wonderful thing!!
welcome back.
Christyna,
It actually was 5 tests! I POAS again Friday, Saturday, and Sunday mornings. All positive.
Yesterday I went to the lab and had blood drawn for the HCG numbers. I'll go back on Wednesday, to see if they are doubling.
Then I will stop with the checking.
I wish I could go into suspended animation for the next several months!
Finally your turn hon!
Wishing you the best
Hoping I'll join you soon.
Wow. Thinking of you and all your words, said and unsaid.
The numbers are good, a bit high for the scale even, and they more than doubled.
I'll still check the tp every time I pee, though.
Thanks again for being there ladies. It means so much to me.
you will check the TP involuntarily until at the very least 4 months. Every ache, twinge and weird sensation with worry you, and time will stand still....you think.
It stood still for me I swear, i was bored, scared, worried, happy, miserable, wonderful, panicky and now I hace 103 days to go and baby kickboxing going on (if I don't feel him for a few hours i worry, and then he kicks the crap out of me.) its all so berve wracking and confusing, but there are moments of genuine happiness amongst the panic I promise. lets keep up the GREAT work!! I still can not believe it I am SO happy for you and had been hoping and praying and wondering for weeks now when it would be your turn....i was not diappointed!!
I have been checking regularly to hear this news:) Congratulations! I got pregnant my first cycle on clomid with this baby, too.
Quite a time for me to go on vacation and not check blogs! Congratulations sweet girl. You can do this.
When you are ready I can recommend some tests my perinatologist (who mainly does research on cervix's) insisted we do every two weeks. I'll never know if they are the reason I have a three-year-old but it was non-invasive, easy, and I have a three-year-old.
Congrats!
Come on over- I have a pink rose for you.
Hey there! It's your buddy from ivillage. Just wanted to say congrats and hope you are feeling good! Can't wait to hear how things are going for you.
My name is Holly Lem and i would like to show you my personal experience with Clomid.
I am 28 years old. I got preg first time on my own & miscarried. after a while of trying, my dr put me on clomid. after the first round i got pregnant & miscarried. i decided not to try or think about it at all probably for a 9 months... right around the time baby would be due & then started trying again. after a few months got back on clomid. after 5 months and no pregnancy i'm giving it a rest again. it's to much disappointment. i'm going to give it a try again soon, in the mean time we're keeping our fingers crossed for the old fashioned way to work.
I have experienced some of these side effects-
HOT FLASHES, moody, cry easily, weight gain, headaches etc!!
I hope this information will be useful to others,
Holly Lem
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